February 10, 2011 2 Comments
A variety of important events have claimed my attention this past year but doing our taxes and reporting no income as a writer was annoying. 2010 was the year I refined many of my business objectives as a writer and enhanced my network and support teams. It’s also the year I accepted that I write contemporary romance novels and memoir.
It was a big step for my psyche to acknowledge that I write memoir. I know so little about the genre and even less about the audience that reads memoir. Until a few months ago I was still very clear that I write sassy domestic dramas and yeah, I wrote this memoir. But now I’m into the professional polish stages on my memoir with an editor, and rewriting a novel, so I can see how these two ways of presenting story are both true to my author theme.
The author theme is that elusive know-thyself journey. For me, this has not changed in all the stories I’ve written. I’m all about happy families and there’s no weapons, drugs, demons, or blood, on the pages. None of my women kick-ass and none of the men are ashhats. Which produced numerous enjoyable to write and read novels but lacked enough conflict and drama to be publishable.
I learned about deep POV (point-of-view) in fiction while I was writing memoir. I did see the irony that memoir is all about deep POV. (There’s also the irony that I was more devoted to learning how to craft a novel while I was writing memoir.) As I’ve been rewriting my novel with deep POV for greater conflict and drama, these past months, I’ve also had an inside view of an awesome story that is tantalizing me to write another memoir.
Which has brought me to the acceptance that I write both memoir and romance. I’m still not sure about meeting the conflict and drama expectations for commercial fiction but I can make up for it in emotional wounds, personal baggage, and significant traumas. I will just use what I know for what the characters need to learn.
Like last month – my youngest called to state she was thrilled with her new doctor. After the initial consultation this doctor stated the anti-anxiety meds would no longer be needed after some therapy with a PTSD specialist. I personally was overloaded with information on Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, for the caretaker, during 2003-4. In 2005-6 when our youngest was slammed with trauma after trauma, after trauma, and more, I would have noticed the signs if I wasn’t dealing with the same events. I feel no guilt and am content she’s recognized and is working toward her own healing.
Earlier this year, while I brainstormed the rewrite of my novel, I labeled the romantic hero’s wound as PTSD. Today I finally took the time to re-research this condition and also read about the Scorpio male. Only then was I able to write the significant two paragraphs that end Chapter Three.
Chapter four also has to be ready for my critique partners by Tuesday. And with those two paragraphs completed, the next chapter will be a breeze… 🙂